Hey everybody!
I know it's been a while since I posted, Sorry. Once I got back to school this semester between studies and work I was just so busy. I have so much I cold tell you that happened in the past couple weeks, especially about seeing my ex, but I just wanted you all to know that God is bigger. He can get you through the worst times, especially when you're at a worship night in a hockey arena and your ex and his girlfriend are right in front of you. God is SO good, and he's working amazing things into my life. I'm a forever changed person, and its all thanks to Him. He IS the truth, and the light. What I thought was truth in my life, wasn't, and to be able to see it again, feels amazing. :)

P.S. I have a feeling this summer will be great :)

Day 104-

Dear Future husband.
Well I just want you to know, wherever you are, I hope you're compassionate. That is all.

Day 99...reflection

so I'm laying in bed and I just thought to myself...wow tomorrow is one hundred days of doing this journey,today is 6 months of being single...wow...thats crazy, i really cant believe it, for those of you who dont knowive been single since october, which really means not dating until september is being single for almost a year, but i didnt decide to do it until new years, just so theres no confusion haha. These past 6 months have really given me a chance to grow as my own person, yeah its been hard,but if i would have jumped into another relationship i really think i would have lost myself, and what good what that have done right? At church today I was looking at the small groups they have and they have one for women calling "a'mour, loving the single life" I think thatd be a fun little group to try out, what do you think?? i really want to get connected with people that i can get to know and rely on, especially with women in the same p:osition as me....something to think about, as i' m half  asleep. :)

Day 95- Forgiven

Hey everybody, for all of you still actually reading my blog. I know it's been 39 days since I last posted. I'm so sorry. I can't make excuses, but I've been busy, and honestly just plain tired. I've been getting tired just of the lies I tell myself. Lies like, I'm not pretty, I did this to myself,  deserve the pain of a broken heart. Well you know what, that's crap. Last night I was at a worship night at my church and I had some one on one prayer with a  prayer leader. I've felt like I haven't been truely able to forgive my ex, and in turn was putting a wall between me and God. She told me it's normal, and the fact is it's all lies I'm telling myself. As humans we tend to believe anything we think in our minds, because if it enters our minds it must be true right? WRONG! Satan takes our hurt and pain and uses our thoughts to lie to us and bring us down. To make us feel unworthy of life and Gods perfect love and forgiveness.

God was nailed to a cross, he didn't deserve to die, and I certainly do not deserve his forgiveness, but he gives it to me anyways. If he can die for me and forgive me, forgiving someone for doing me wrong should be a piece of cake. The Bible says that if we cannot forgive,our Father cannot forgive us. If you have someone you need to forgive, even for something that happened years ago, give it to God, he's so much bigger than our minds can comprhend and he can take it. Give him the glory, and ask him to help you forgive the person who did you wrong. God heals and God provides.


"Take my life and let it be all for you and for your glory,
take my life and let it be yours."

Day 56- Single life

Hey guys, I'm so sorry I haven't been posting a lot lately, I'm just so busy between working and keeping up  with my studies. I just wanted to update you on the single life. So far so good! I must say it feels like a relief right now, especially working and doing school, I feel like I don't have time for that right now, or not a solid relationship anyways, i mean don't get me wrong, if the right guy came along and was worth the effort that'd be nice, but I can't think of that until Sepetember right? ;) The nice thing is, I haven't really had the temptation of wanting to be in a relationship, I haven't been asked out on dates or anything. Maybe there is some guys showing interest and I just don't realize it? I haven't been really hanging out with guys though, I've been just sticking with the girls on my floor, and my close girlfriends here, which I think is why I've been staying so strong. That and the support of a great family and a great best friend helps, love you guys :)

Isaiah 53:5 "But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed."

I'm so thankful for a God who heals, especially broken hearts <3.

Incase you're wondering...I survived black monday...or valentines day as most of you called it,I was sick all weekend and slept most of valentines day, so kind of made it like it wasnt there. i did receive two packages from my parents and sisters, theyre the best and it made my day so much better. I couldnt ask for a better family.
Jesus was my valentine this year, thats all I needed,and it was perfect. for all of you who had dates, i sure do hope you had a great day, im sure it was special. I did go to supper with my friend chelsea, it was a good time, were boyfriendless, obviously i am haha, and thats ok, i was fine and made the day great. my prayer is that everyone keeps in mind, we dont need one specific day of the year to tell the people we love, that we love them. so all you single people out there, monday was just a day, you're very loved, and dont let "valentines day" make you forget that.
This year was defiantely different than the last two, not having my boyfriend this year, but I will find a new valentine someday, and it'll be worth it, right? :)

Day 47- Valentine's Day say whaaaaaaaaa???

So Valentine's Day....day after tomorrow, how lovely! I was thinking about this today. First Valentine's Day without my ex, at first I was like awe..sad, then I was like, oh it actually doesn't matter, because all Valentine's is, is getting tons of candy to make you gain weight, and I'm working on losing weight so why hinder my process with a boyfriend? ;) I'm actually doing really well! I do actally have a Valentine's date...haha, with my friend Chelsea, were going out for supper after her night class, being with don't have any boyfriends at the moment, and were both fine with that. We will have a great time, and not even think about our ex's or all the other couples out celebrating. Besides who are we kidding? Valentine's day is so overrated :) I used to say that until I had a boyfriend, then I was all for it, now I'm back to thinking that, and I'm sticking to it! I have all the love I need,a God who is so gracious, great parents, amazing 3 older sisters, 5 neices and nephews, the best friends in the world. So with all this the question is, will I be depressed on "black monday"? The answer is, heckkkkkk no! But for all you love birds, enjoy the day :)