Day 4-Ending 2010

First off, HAPPY NEW YEAR :) It is New years eve, last day of 2010, where did the time go??

This has been a crazy year, and as much as I don't like to think about it, a lot has happened. I feel like I've learned a lot this year good and bad. I've grown up a lot, that is for sure. It's kind of crazy how a broken heart like automatically matures you in a way, it's a hard life lesson that everyone learns in some form. Mine was losing my boyfriend the boy who I thought was the love of my life. Well 2010 showed me that my plans for myself indeed where not the plans God set for me.

As 2011 I begin a new chaper in my life. I'm moving back to North Central, where my ex will be, but I'll blog about that later...anyways, school, back to Minneapolis, new job that hopefully I'll find....and new people I'll meet...who knows what 2011 will bring, but as I'm on ths journey of finding myself in God, I know the best is yet to come.

Shout out to my best friend: Thank you so much for being there for me this year, I wouldn't of survived without you. I'm so excited for this year and the journey we are taking! Love you!

Day 3- Prayer

My parents always told me to pray for my future husband, even if I don't know him yet, so here we go :)

Dear future wonderful, amazing husband of mine, You are more precious than you know! I can NOT wait to find out who you are! If I happen to meet you before September, please be patient with me. I'm on a journey that I need to finish, and believe me once I do, i'm going to be in perfect shape for you! If you'll wait for me like I know you will were going to be blessed :) I wonder what you're doing right now, I'm just thinking about you, and dancing to some awesome music! B ready for me, I'm a silly one! Hope you sleep well :)

Day 3- Grenade

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash, you tossed it in the trash you did.
To give me all our love is all I ever asked.
-Bruno Mars, Grenade

It's so easy relating my life to music lyrics. It seems all you have to do is listen to a song and be like YES!  My life story right there! Well Bruno Mars for one is a outstanding artist, he's also very real and I love his music.If you haven't heard his latest song "Grenade" I have a little taste of it up above.

Have you ever felt like you gave everything you had to someone? Gave all your love, all your effort, all of you? Yeah me too. It sucks getting that thrown back into your face doesn't it? Feeling like they threw away every piece of you, everything you two ever stood for. I'm a little frustrated with it today, i just feel like I put so much effort and love into it, and now I'm left here. Well guess what, God loves me and everything I give to him he keeps, what a blessing...his love is the most important thing I'll ever ask. So I guess I just need to keep telling myself this, Greater things are yet to come. :)

Deuteronomy 7:9"Know therefore that the LORD your God, He is God, the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and His lovingkindness to a thousandth generation with those who love Him and keep His commandments;


And as for my future husband, as long as we're on the Bruno Mars kick, just sing "Just the way you are" to me and we will be set for life :) Love you.

Cannon D

The last thing on my mind is marriage. Obviously since I'm doing 8 months of no dating, it's the farthest thing from my mind. Well on my way to work today I was listening to klove, which is a Christian radio station and all of a sudden Cannon D starts playing. Why? Is what I asked myself before my mouth dropped! What's up with that? It seems strange for that to just start playing randomly on klove. Is this a test? a sign? I really have no idea but it got me thinking...

I really love the idea of being married someday, but I'm not going to settle. I've been through enough and sure, it's making me a stronger person. But why settle for one thing when you could have the best? The best is out there, and the best will be exactly what I need, and who God wants for me. My Prince Charming, it's exciting to think about. You may be wondering what will happen if I meet this man in the next 8 months. Simple, I will continue my journey with God. If it's meant to be, this man will wait for me until I'm done, and it will be WELL worth the wait!

Little piece of advice: The Bible says For this cause, a man shall leave his father and his mother and shall cleave to his wife, and they shall become one flesh. Genesis 2:24
If you're with someone who is still attached to a parent, or attached to a friend of the  opposite sex that they can not let go...your relationship isn't as strong as you think it is. If you get married and start fighting the  person they are going to run to is that "friend" of the opposite sex, who they shouldn't even be talking to anyways...If they're not ready to leave a parent or a friend, they're not ready for you. Save yourself the heartbreak and end it. Ladies, you want a strong man, not a weak man...or boy! If he's putting himself first before you and your relationship, it's not love. We all love the idea of a relationship and having someone there, you just need to figure out if you really love the person, and that's exactly what I'm doing.

Day 1- Part two.

"To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you."
-C.S. Lewis

Forgiveness. Something that I've been thinking about. I think in order to keep healing I need to forgive him. How he treated me was inexcusable, but like C.S. Lewis said "God has forgiven the inexcusable in you" So there's no reason why I can't forgive him right? This is all part of the journey. Forgiving is a hard thing to do, but once I can open my heart and fully forgive him, I'll finally be able to breathe! :)

And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses. - Mark 11:25

Day 1- December 28th, 2010

So I've never done a blog before, but me and my best friend thought it would be good thing to do while we take a journey on finding ourselves.

On October 3rd my boyfriend of a year and 9 months broke up with me, I thought it was the end of the world. I'm finally realizing it's not. My journey is just beginning. I'm finding the truth and finding the plans God has or me is so much more than I imagined, and it goes farther than just having a boyfriend  and someone to count on. God should be the only one we need to rely on, he is more than enough for us, and knowing this is true is the only way I'm going to make it doing what I'm going to do for the next 8 months.

I've decided for the next 8 months not to date. I'm going to take this time to get closer to God and to seek him more. He deserves my complete focus and I know i'm going to come out of this feeling so blessed. I need to find out who  I am and who God wants me to be. He made me for something greater than I realize, and I'm going to pray and take a journey of self discovery with him, my creator. I know it's going to be hard, but with God ALL things are possible!

I'm excited to blog and journal during the next 8 months to see how much I change and grow as a woman in Christ!