So first off if you don't know the I attend a Bible college, this means we go to Chapel everyday. And out of oh let's say 1,300 seats my ex was in the row right behind me today. Awkward? Oh yes, but I was with a bunch of girls off my floor, so I couldn't just get up and leave. I know he saw me, but he acted like I didn't exist. Real great I know, I'm sure that'd make his "new girlfriend" happy knowing he ignores me. But what caught me off guard was during worship I started weeping. Out of no where, because there he was, the boy who I thought I was going to marry, sitting behind me, ignorning me, and probably texting his girlfriend. All I could do was worship while I was weeping and give it to God, and honestly after praying and worshiping I felt at peace. I think him sitting there today is what I needed for me to give it to God like I did, because I've been holding it in. All I hope for now is that it gets easier everytime I see him, which I think it will, I don't want to be bawling everytime I see him haha :)
I guess my thoughts on it is that we will never understand God, he is to big to understand, but we do know he desires a relationship with us, his creation, and if we seek him we will no longer have that void in our hearts. Just because we have a limited understanding of God, doesn't mean we should have a weak faith.
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